Saturday, January 27, 2007
first track of my life
i wanna begin blogging to keep track of myself..am i changing or am i slacking or am i still the same?
haiz...everything seems wrong from day 1..grew more tired and weary of life...living it more and more each day actually tells me i noe less and less about myself...either i am loosing what i thought i had in me or it was nvr there..it was all just an illusion...
pissed at myself, at why i can tell others what to do and yet when it comes to my own problems i just trip over a small rock and fall...
i remember telling sum1, dont push ur friends too hard or they'll leave...friends are like birds, u dont hold them nicely they fly away..u hold them too tight, they die and move on...but how do u noe if u're holding them jus nice and comfy? if u find out that u're chocking them, would it be too late to turn back? if u find out u're turning a deaf ear to sum1, is it too late to apologise and get close again?
friends...i have ntg to say...much and much was gained and lost..each time i still trip and fall at the same mistakes i make...true friendship is what i seek..have i found it? or has it just passed me by...
someone told me i've changed since end of last year...and so i have noticed myself...feels like i am moving to the darker side of life due to pressures of life...where is my hope, where is my joy, where is my faith? most of all, where am i?
within this few weeks, every week a bomb is released into my life..without a week of rest a new bomb comes in and disrupts my life again...wished it would stop..or i will die soon..wished everything would be as it used too...
its lonely nowadays...open my mailbox and i got ntg to do...no one to care about..will my heart grow cold? will i give up on my promise? i hope i wont...
i shall await for the sea to calm..i will nvr depart from the sea where u should live freely...i wanna hear the sound of the waves again..i wanna the calming breeze of the sea that assures me of life..bringing the courage to face tomoro...
to the 2 persons that matter most..u know who u r? i made a promise and i wont run...i maybe like a kid to u..but when it comes to times when u need help, i'll always be here..like how u promised u got my back when i am holding on to the edge of my life...wished things would be back as it used to be...its the only thing i were to look forward to now...
gtg bury my head in sth i dont understand...hope i dont fall asleep
i know that i have loved you ... at 1/27/2007 10:39:00 PM
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