Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Peace and quiet at last
never knew it would be so stressed staying at home even if its the hols...those pair of eyes nvr stop watching every single thing that u do even if u're in ur own room...imagine sneaking in and out of my room in the mornings so i dont get busted and questioned for my actions...man it's tiring...
late nights of new year..with a lil gambling to help the time past..its consuming my brain cells at the same time..its so hard to play and win..its so easy to play an loose...haha..oh well, its a once a year thing so what the hey, enjoy while i still can...
feels so nice to be sitting here, undisturbed...doing what i wanna do...thinking of things i wanna think about...being able to express my own emotions without hiding them...it has only been 4 days of being home and i can feel that i can no longer put up a show to make my mom think i am ok...hmmm, wonder when will my bubble get burst...
days with so much complication...hope it was the end of it all yesterday...today is a new beginning..
**oh shit, i forgot to wish my dad happy birthday...i am so so so dead in the morning...ah, nvm la..too late i already said i was going to sleep so i shall continue blogging**
where was i?? oh yes...its so easy to start sth but its so hard to end it..so i've realised there are a lot of consequences to one's actions..and the consequences take place like a chain reaction...the more u wish it would stop..the more it goes on...let's hope for now it would really really stop...
hmmm...i feel that there are somethings i keep repeating in most of my posts..haha..well, i am a boring person no doubt...but i like to type so my posts are all quite long...sigh...my eyes are trying to shut now so i can hardly concentrate on what to write...warning signal: PLEASE GO TO BED!!
i shall keep what's suppose to be kept in me inside...cuz not every1 would understand how u'd really feel...and it most of the time tends to bring up misunderstandings..so yea i shall end here...cuz i really am very sleepy liao...
nites ppl and take care!!
i know that i have loved you ... at 2/20/2007 02:19:00 AM
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