Monday, April 30, 2007
Accumulation...
There were further improvements…I shall keep holding on and pray…it does work ^^
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12.30 am – posting while chatting with someone who can’t sleep…don’t think too much!
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Here is what I missed to post in the past few days:
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I gave myself a conscience check…everything feels like I can’t get over myself but I seriously want to push my limits and make it happen…
All the things I put up for this trip makes me feel like I am shortening my life span…
But looking at the bright side, I know its all worth my efforts put in…Well, at least that’s what I hope for now
…
“You need to wake up…”
Wow, these words I haven’t heard in a very long time…and someone finally took the courage and says it in my face…I wasn’t shock to hear that…I needed that, I was loosing myself…
And it took someone who cares, someone whom I knew for not too long but is no doubt a great person…well, the same person who can’t sleep…haha…
Thanks for the wake up call girl!!!
Was I sleeping and living in my dreams; not wanting to wake up from my fantasies?
The conversation goes on…”if u just take _ as a close friend...u wont be so miserable when _ sort of like ignore u sometimes right”
What you said is not wrong…but feelings are hard to be controlled…maybe I have low EQ; hmm, reminds me on the ESL assignment back in Taylor’s…EQ Vs IQ; what a topic to choose, made my life so miserable…
“This is so called friend!...good friends will try to help u when u need them…but they wont be by your side all the times…as in 24 hours..”
These words made me evaluate my life; am I going overboard for friendships? And if I do, I have to accept the consequences that no one is like me and I cannot expect others to be like me…in conclusion, doing it out of free will of the heart…that’s all that matters…all I need to know is that you guys are happy ^^
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2nd part:
Never be the one giving more in a relationship; be it couples; be it friendship; it works the same way…It’s a good thing but there is a side effect; sacrifice which will lead to hurt at times…
Don’t wait till it’s too late…when you loose something you tend to appreciate it more
-I deleted this part I wrote during that time, I’d still like to see things change for the better-
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If I am left bare without all you do about me; will I look that scary like you picture me to be?
Cuz you make me feel like I need to hide away from the real world and just show a mannequin of myself…
…
Whose heart will I choose to break?
…
How could something so wrong feel so right? It really seems I got to track back my old self…This shouldn’t go on…I am only destroying myself…
One moment hot , one moment cold; fluctuating character…
Who do you think you are? Or should the question be;
What do I think I am to you? Feels like I'm just another passerby…
Accumulated feelings but having no freedom to post…
Any moment the door opens with a loud bang and the voice that I fear starts showering me; Give me a break please…I really want my space!
I can’t post now...and here ends my another short note I saved in my notepad…
I need to rant!!!
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177Q – especially triple sharing and single room…where are you guys??? I miss you all…wait, I’m talking to 1 of u now…haha…that was so random
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Another person said “your life is yours…you don’t live it for the sake of others…”
If the rest of the worlds were stones then I think that is possible, but if they’re not? Then I’ll choose to take the tears just to make life easier…better to see more smiles then see everyone having a hard time
~ ~ ~ ~
1. When I blog and others see, its a step of overcoming my problems, facing it and not hiding it
2. People who really care will try to help out
It’s really worth blogging…at least u know who cares and who doesn’t;
lets just put it this way...someone special taught me the meaning of blogging...at certain times when I wished to give up, she said something that made me go on...blogging actually gave me a place to turn to when i had no one to talk to in a lonely room...I have a place to complain and drown my sorrows into...Its like I said a place I called my own...
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Mapling was great last night…it does bring back memories…shall keep it short…like I said…I shall say no more…
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It’s a pretty long post…1.45 am…I think I shall end here…Good night everyone!
~ ~ ~ ~
12.30 am – posting while chatting with someone who can’t sleep…don’t think too much!
~ ~ ~ ~
Here is what I missed to post in the past few days:
…
I gave myself a conscience check…everything feels like I can’t get over myself but I seriously want to push my limits and make it happen…
All the things I put up for this trip makes me feel like I am shortening my life span…
But looking at the bright side, I know its all worth my efforts put in…Well, at least that’s what I hope for now
…
“You need to wake up…”
Wow, these words I haven’t heard in a very long time…and someone finally took the courage and says it in my face…I wasn’t shock to hear that…I needed that, I was loosing myself…
And it took someone who cares, someone whom I knew for not too long but is no doubt a great person…well, the same person who can’t sleep…haha…
Thanks for the wake up call girl!!!
Was I sleeping and living in my dreams; not wanting to wake up from my fantasies?
The conversation goes on…”if u just take _ as a close friend...u wont be so miserable when _ sort of like ignore u sometimes right”
What you said is not wrong…but feelings are hard to be controlled…maybe I have low EQ; hmm, reminds me on the ESL assignment back in Taylor’s…EQ Vs IQ; what a topic to choose, made my life so miserable…
“This is so called friend!...good friends will try to help u when u need them…but they wont be by your side all the times…as in 24 hours..”
These words made me evaluate my life; am I going overboard for friendships? And if I do, I have to accept the consequences that no one is like me and I cannot expect others to be like me…in conclusion, doing it out of free will of the heart…that’s all that matters…all I need to know is that you guys are happy ^^
…
2nd part:
Never be the one giving more in a relationship; be it couples; be it friendship; it works the same way…It’s a good thing but there is a side effect; sacrifice which will lead to hurt at times…
Don’t wait till it’s too late…when you loose something you tend to appreciate it more
-I deleted this part I wrote during that time, I’d still like to see things change for the better-
…
If I am left bare without all you do about me; will I look that scary like you picture me to be?
Cuz you make me feel like I need to hide away from the real world and just show a mannequin of myself…
…
Whose heart will I choose to break?
…
How could something so wrong feel so right? It really seems I got to track back my old self…This shouldn’t go on…I am only destroying myself…
One moment hot , one moment cold; fluctuating character…
Who do you think you are? Or should the question be;
What do I think I am to you? Feels like I'm just another passerby…
Accumulated feelings but having no freedom to post…
Any moment the door opens with a loud bang and the voice that I fear starts showering me; Give me a break please…I really want my space!
I can’t post now...and here ends my another short note I saved in my notepad…
I need to rant!!!
~ ~ ~ ~
177Q – especially triple sharing and single room…where are you guys??? I miss you all…wait, I’m talking to 1 of u now…haha…that was so random
~ ~ ~ ~
Another person said “your life is yours…you don’t live it for the sake of others…”
If the rest of the worlds were stones then I think that is possible, but if they’re not? Then I’ll choose to take the tears just to make life easier…better to see more smiles then see everyone having a hard time
~ ~ ~ ~
1. When I blog and others see, its a step of overcoming my problems, facing it and not hiding it
2. People who really care will try to help out
It’s really worth blogging…at least u know who cares and who doesn’t;
lets just put it this way...someone special taught me the meaning of blogging...at certain times when I wished to give up, she said something that made me go on...blogging actually gave me a place to turn to when i had no one to talk to in a lonely room...I have a place to complain and drown my sorrows into...Its like I said a place I called my own...
~ ~ ~ ~
Mapling was great last night…it does bring back memories…shall keep it short…like I said…I shall say no more…
~ ~ ~ ~
It’s a pretty long post…1.45 am…I think I shall end here…Good night everyone!
i know that i have loved you ... at 4/30/2007 01:38:00 AM
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