Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Back but unwell
As much as I want to be there for you; to hear you out and all…
Yet I feel I am not wanted; I stand aside and dare not approach you anymore…
Is it ending? Or is it time that you still need…
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You question me like you were interrogating a suspect; I had not enough time to finish it…it wasn’t what I wanted…can’t you see I am in stress and pain too…
You blame my attitude for not having friends…hello? Were you hear to see how I was treated…I am not allowed to go out all the time; how do you expect me to hang out with them…
I am not him; you do not compare me with him…He’s perfect I am not so what…maybe I suck in my tertiary study compared to him…do you know how stressed I get when I say I cant do and you ask him and the way he answers you is like a piece of cake…
This course wasn’t my passion…how far do you understand that? I did this for your sake…as much as I said I didn’t want to further my dreams…if you all understood me well this is not what I want…
At times I just tend to think you’re not caring, you’re forcing me to be someone I am not…
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Had fever since last night…I practically ate 4 panadols, slept for 12 hours now…and I am still not feeling well…not to mention hungry…
I still have to go for class at 12 to 4…I already missed my 8 am class…
~ ~ ~ ~
I am still asking when it will all end. Or do you really wish that I should close this fairy tale which I thought was coming true?
Yet I feel I am not wanted; I stand aside and dare not approach you anymore…
Is it ending? Or is it time that you still need…
~ ~ ~ ~
You question me like you were interrogating a suspect; I had not enough time to finish it…it wasn’t what I wanted…can’t you see I am in stress and pain too…
You blame my attitude for not having friends…hello? Were you hear to see how I was treated…I am not allowed to go out all the time; how do you expect me to hang out with them…
I am not him; you do not compare me with him…He’s perfect I am not so what…maybe I suck in my tertiary study compared to him…do you know how stressed I get when I say I cant do and you ask him and the way he answers you is like a piece of cake…
This course wasn’t my passion…how far do you understand that? I did this for your sake…as much as I said I didn’t want to further my dreams…if you all understood me well this is not what I want…
At times I just tend to think you’re not caring, you’re forcing me to be someone I am not…
~ ~ ~ ~
Had fever since last night…I practically ate 4 panadols, slept for 12 hours now…and I am still not feeling well…not to mention hungry…
I still have to go for class at 12 to 4…I already missed my 8 am class…
~ ~ ~ ~
I am still asking when it will all end. Or do you really wish that I should close this fairy tale which I thought was coming true?
i know that i have loved you ... at 6/12/2007 11:23:00 AM
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities